Dedication
Dedications always sound so idiotic, example: "Thank you world for bringing me into existence; mother, father and siblings… I learned from everything you taught me. You, my family, my friends have brought me to this place in life… " Bullshit. Shall I gag now or later on that?
Generally what actually happens is something along the lines of: Father fucks around on Mother who acts indignant and all hurt and the like when on the side she has a little boy toy downtown… Mother then yells at child who runs outside to play and hides out from the fighting in the house. Gets involved with some stuff he probably shouldn't and summarily gets his ass thrown in juvie or jail and has a record etc. Goes home and still doesn't get along with parents that fight, and gets beaten on for not listening.
Then comes the mushy part: Boy writes a book and as you open the cover you see on the first page how if it were not for dear ole mother and father he would never have succeeded in life. I would hate to think mine sounded like that or like some mushy shit love thing - but then again, that is exactly what it will probably turn out to be, but don't hold it against me… this isn't bullshit it's real.
So here goes it. I met this person and we've talked for I dunno about five-six months now. It was all a play thing at first, a game we both played if anyone is familiar with RP. Anyhow, started talking for real soon after meeting and I dunno what it was for him back in the beginning but I so enjoyed talking to him and playing the game. Later, but not much, which is surprising for me cause I'm so hard to get along with, I just couldn't stand not talking to him - anyway I'll tell you this, and I hate to wax poetic, as it were.
There is not another person on this earth that has ever made me feel the way he does. He is in my mind at all times wherever I am and damn, my chest just hurts thinking about him when I'm not talking to him. Ryan I dedicate this site, though it's just my own "ramblings" and nonsense, to you. I love you I swear it on whatever there is to believe in… though I know I don't need to cause I know you know it.
By the way folks, he is the one that put this site together for me. Isn't he clever as shit?
Forever,
Jadenguil
June 26th, 2000