Meaningless
Why am I here?
I didn't ask for any of this
I hate it here I want to leave
But there is nowhere to fucking go
I'm crying and the tears taste so good
I wish someone would come get me
Looking around I wonder if anyone can hear
Then I realize that I am alone as always
I don't want anyone to hear!
Everyone can go to hell and die…
I wish I could go too… but I can't
I'm not allowed. I have to stay here and suffer
Please, please, help me, please
I don't want this anymore I can't stand it
There is noone to talk to and nowhere to go
The silence is choking me it hurts so badly
Just a voice in the darkness to soothe me
Oh God please give me a voice
Just a noise for me to hear that says I am here
That someone knows I am here
I am here! I exist goddamn you
See me! hear me and feel me…
I am warm I am not cold not really
I am not mean I don't want to be when I am
It comes on me that everyone is unreal
They are lying and not worth my time
Then I'm alone I am not worth their time
Noone can see me anyway, not me really
Just the illusion of me the outside me
I don't know… the whole thing
Life
It's so fucking meaningless