Tripping
How can I think when I am angry?
Each time I try a veil of hatred falls
It overcomes me and I need to get out
But what am I leaving when I go?
There is no way out ever
Out never happens
It just lingers and preys
Tearing at my thoughts
Almost like an injection of pain
Then it turns in to heated rage
I hate depression it is almost like home
Do I really want to live there though?
Oh God I did it again that crazy thing I do
Take a pill and run and leave and go
Tripping again it all turns out okay
No worries no problems no anger
Only a sweet longing for sleep
Understanding of everything seeps
I am so damned clever now when I'm high
I laugh and majically all the bad things
simply leave me
I am tripping so hard I can feel it
And it really is great honestly
Who would have thought a chemical
Could cure all your ills for a little hile?
My loved one is so far
But when I am high I can take it
And that place I wanted to get to
And I just can't yet, for whatever reason
Well… someday, right?
My friend pissed me off earlier
And I was so damned mad but It's cool
I almost forgot about it
And hey…It's better than cutting right?
Burning would be okay I think
Can't do it now though cause my hands dont work
All that… well really now who cares
And the lady I call mum she is so sarcastic
Yeah I know I'm a fuck up so remind me
Everyday is a good day for that… hearing it
Perhaps if I heard it just once more?
I'd get it through my fucking head eh?
To the others I know who don't know me
Just tell me you hate me and get it over with
It is fine really I have it all worked out
Think I'll just trip for the rest of my life
And leave the madness behind
Yeah